Our Subconscious

Milena Sees Witchcraft Everywhere.

How The Innocent Become Evildoers.

The Subconscious, Part 8.


My Jasper friend came to visit briefly last night, and brought his friend Milena who was visiting him. He usually calls me to tell me he arrived home safely, this time he sounded upset and I asked why. He said that his bathroom had overflowed in some way and had damaged his ceiling; he’d gotten it all cleaned up but was still a little shaken. But he went on to say that he was also feeling a little disturbed by the things Milena had been telling him about me.Picture of a horrendous voodoo doll and a witch

He went on to say that she had called me a black magician, stated that I practiced voodoo and suggested that he needs to choose his friends with more care!

Obviously there was something that she couldn’t handle in my small flat. Now she did question my possession of a little woolen doll who looks like a witch. Add a sleepy black cat and I think you’ll be able to work out where the witchcraft comes in. As to the voodoo, that had me floored.

Continue reading “Milena Sees Witchcraft Everywhere.”

Emotional Intelligence · Reality

Conversation In Goethe’s Time, And Ours.

Goethe lived at a time when, according to Rudolf Steiner, most people thought in the manner of Aristotle. That is to say, broad brush strokes that today would be scorned as generalities. Indeed, were someone to speak with Goethe today, they would be frustrated with his unwillingness to be specific. But then, such a person would find his own contemporaries just as frustrating because the way in which they were specific did not accord with their own.

A true conversation is a breathing process, but one that would not be recognized by any medical doctor! For breathing is a term that can be applied more broadly to other activities, like conversation, that involve the etheric realm. If this is not a term you have met before, worry not, as I usually express myself using familiar words to let them describe what is going on, rather than expecting you to struggle with unfamiliar terms or ideas. It’s my way of having a conversation with someone I can’t actually see; explaining such things is also why my posts often meander from the central topic at hand.

For in this respect a conversation is an inbreathing of what someone else has said, and an outbreathing of one’s own response to them. This is a far from common occurrence however. An example of this is when I was in a cafe in Aachen enjoying coffee with a friend. Someone overheard us and introducing himself as Peter, asked to join us at our table and started a conversation. Naturally, it wasn’t the one we were having, but no matter, for our new friend did say he would be brief. He asked me my job, and I said that I was retired. In response I asked him his, only to be met with silence. That is to say, his response was barred by an antipathy he had toward my response. Now antipathies are strange beasts that colour many a conversation! I cannot say for certain why he refused to respond, though I have my own ideas about it which I expressed to my companion Jasper afterward.

The other telling side of the conversation was that he held the reigns. On mentioning a story that had brought some hilarity to my previous conversations with Jasper, our acquaintance dismissed this in favour of what he wished to say. In other words, Peter was not doing much by way of inbreathing. That is to say, he held some Antipathies.

Sympathy And Antipathy.

For Peter was comfortable in his own sphere, and uncomfortable with others. Keeping to his realm, he was able to retain his dignity – but the problem was that he wouldn’t let others speak of things outside this. Thus he spoke only from his own Sympathy.

Because the ideas he was sharing were all concerned with electricity, I spoke of the possibility of failures in the power supply, after all, electricity is not something that occurs naturally in any form. However, these were swiftly dismissed as being details that were, in his opinion, of no importance. Again, he withdrew in front of an Antipathy. I am sure that many of you might agree with him, given the pervasive nature of electricity in our modern world. After all, without it you’d not be reading this. The other side of the coin is that Peter and myself could have had our conversation without electricity, though it would have been cold outside and there would have been no coffee. I had been unable to take many photographs that day because my new camera had run out of battery power, so power failure was something of a sore point at that moment.

The real issue here is that I attempted to express an idea and it was dismissed out of hand.

Now it is true that I am often countered with details – but I do not see these as Antipathies. I can give a direct answer concerning a detail, with the intent of satisfying the other person whilst keeping the conversation on topic. In other words, acknowledging and responding to the sympathy of the other. You can begin to see that Sympathy is what holds a conversation together, and Antipathy keeps it interesting.

A good conversation is therefore one where Sympathy and Antipathy are in balance. That is to say, where all involved are breathing in and out steadily.


The point of this post is that most people are not fully aware of what leads them to hold Antipathies. I am sure this is true of Peter, for were he more aware, he would have had the confidence to speak of his job. I have met this first hand when asking someone their work only for them to recoil as if they were a tortoise withdrawing its head into its shell!

Conversation Today.

In the time of Goethe – that is to say, a little more than two hundred years ago – such Antipathies held far less power in the mind. For the ability to converse with another on equal terms is to converse with the other without the barriers of Sympathy or Antipathy. Objectivity, by any other name. However the real problem we face today is that most Antipathies and no few Sympathies are not within one’s ability to perceive. If you have read the above carefully, you will begin to see that bringing such issues to full consciousness – that is to say, beginning to perceive what one cannot yet perceive – will direct one to a point where one will meet these very Antipathies! The very thought of entering into a conversation will raise the fear of them, and so people come to prefer their newspaper.

The other side of this is to recognize when someone is holding something back. For holding something back implies an Antipathy of which they are unaware. Were they aware, they would not hold back, would they? They would have dealt with it! This activity can be thought of as recognizing something in oneself.

Evidence of Antipathies.

The First: Nobody May Reply. So take note if someone is lecturing to others, for they will admit nobody to counter them. That is to say, their Antipathies are so strong that they are literally terrified of what others may say.

The Second: Nobody Can Reply. The blandness of management speak is vague and airy with the sole reason that nobody can challenge it. That is to say, countering them is impossible because there is only thin air to counter. Arguments against such things simply do not exist.

The Third: Everybody Can Agree. Lovely pictures of fluffy kittens and butterflies are beautiful to all. Everyone can agree to this, save those who are downright evil (me). (Haha!) In saying something that means anything to anybody, nobody need say anything in response.

When you recognize any of the above situations, you will realize that the person you are speaking with wishes to dispel true conversation. Watch out for them.

Modern Times · Our Subconscious

Enemies In The Boardroom.

Why Do They Hate The People They Work With?


The Subconscious, Part 6

There is an old saying, probably as old as the boardroom itself, and it goes like this: “Half the board of directors are your enemies, but the other half of the board of directors are the kind of people who make you prefer your enemies.

Now many of you will find this puzzling, but I doubt if many reading this will have ever been in a boardroom. Come to that, neither have I! But I do understand what’s going on here, so allow me a little by way of imagining what it’s like in the boardroom. After all, for all their power and prestige, directors are all too human.

And my analysis is based on that last sentence. That they’re human. No small part is why they’re there at all, and they are facing this puzzling situation as a result.


We’ll begin with the enemies. Why are these guys enemies anyway? Are they not working to a common purpose? Perhaps not. For it is part of a modern male to be dominant, and these animal passions are allowed free play in the systems we have set up to run businesses. The alpha-male will make it to the top, the beta-male will struggle with the mortgage. The thwarted alpha-male will become a little Hitler, the ever thwarted beta-male will always struggle. Well,hat’s life! But how many people actually liked Hitler, and how many people were his enemy? How many put up with Hitler simply because he was the boss – and how many were given any choice?

Dominance in this respect is to wield one’s own will over others, and in doing so, deny them their voice. This is not a situation which engenders open conversation, is it?

It’s “do as you’re told and shut up”.

Neither person comes out of this any wiser. The dominant person isn’t interested in the other person and the dominated person has every right to see the other as an enemy.

You can begin to see that this is a situation where hate of one’s enemies becomes the prevailing force driving business. Now you may say that they like each other – so why then the well known saying? People will say they like someone else, if only to shut them up. Worse, to stop them saying something hurtful. Alpha males are driven by fear.

Your Enemies.

So there are half the board of directors who are your enemies. You know why they are your enemies! Perhaps the marketing director said something to you one day that you found particularly offensive? Perhaps he was your boss in another time and another space? Reason enough for him to be an enemy.
But this isn’t about what we’re conscious of. This isn’t just about those who are our enemies. It’s about why those people

Making You Prefer Your Enemies!

Because you can’t put your finger on what it is they do that gets your goat! Raises that passion of enmity within your chest. You don’t know them well enough to know where they’re coming from.
It could be any number of things, but you simply cannot say what it is.

With those you hate, you can see why they are enemies! With one of them, there’s that irksome something in their manner that just sets you off every time they start speaking. Or it’s the way they keep tapping their pen. Or scratching their ear? The way they so smarmily talk when speaking to the directors junior to them.

But these others! That dangerous mix of not knowing what it is that irks – that is to say, of absolute uncertainty – and twenty years of getting one’s own way – that is to say, of absolute certainty – one can’t take a glimpse of them and stay calm!

The alpha male lives in a world of total certainty. Anything that isn’t certain is a direct threat. The nastiest thing for them is that these other directors are as domineering and as go-getting as anyone on this planet. Everyone around that table is a threat.  In a world where certainty is all, the merest uncertainty becomes magnified enormously.

The Subconscious

It’s that not being able to put a finger on why that director is so annoying. It’s like trying to remember the name of the footballer who scored that goal in 2004, it’s just not there. Nobody can remember, you’re all plumbing the depths of your mind to find it – names are spoken but none are right. Total frustration.

That is when you are looking into your subconscious. There’s nothing there. Actually, there’s a lot there. Like the name of that footballer.

The problem is you just can’t remember it!

The subconscious is very real, and very powerful. The problem we face in our modern world is that it controls much of what we do. The problem is rather subtle: how would you know? This is the fifth in a series that explores the phenomenon of our subconscious.


The Subconscious: Links To Other Parts In This Series.


Part 1 Why Some Africans Can’t Count Beyond Three.
Part 2 Doctor Jazz, Düsseldorf.
Part 3 Letting The Lizard Drive!
Part 4 The Lizard Brain Meets Its Match: Brian’s Fiat Panda.
Part 5 Snow White And The Railways.
Part 6 Enemies In The Boardroom.  
Part 7 The Clock Ticks: The Unconscious Threshold.    (Published on my private blog)
Part 8 Milena Sees Witchcraft Everywhere.
Part 9 Frustration!
Part 10 What’s On Mina’s Mind Today?
Part 11 A First Peek At Autism.
Part 12 A Railway Waggon At The Roots Of Dementia?
Part 13 What’s It Like In There? Life With Dementia… (Published privately)
Part 14 The Evidence For Dementia.
Part 15 The Trouble With Alzheimer’s.
Part 16 The Man On Platform Two.


Leveraging Debt.

Why Banks Don’t Need Rocket Science.

I met a very nice man on one of my occasional visits to Naumburg in Germany. That’s a picture of Naumburg’s mediaeval marketplace up there, by the way. Anyway, he asked me if I knew that banks could create money. I replied that I did. He went on to mention how they could take $10,000 and leverage it. But he didn’t go any further than that. My response was that of the banker: for a banker doesn’t think of this money, for ten grand is a piddling sum to them – they’ve already reverse-engineered this against the interest rate and arrived at how much money this sum will allow them to borrow.

I’ll explain. Continue reading “Leveraging Debt.”


“It Is To Have A Good Heart”

Frauds and their Behaviour, Part 6

The Double, Part 2

This comes from a comment made to me yesterday. I was informed that having a good heart leads to good action.


Well, this is what many people think. What’s more, it is comforting to think that in having a good heart, one will do good. But care is needed when feeling too comfortable in oneself! This is the most insidious of temptations that can beguile a human, and the belief that one has a good heart is often little more than one expression of having succumbed to this temptation.

Well, this is what many people think. What’s more, it is comforting to think that in having a good heart, one will do good. But care is needed when feeling too comfortable in oneself! This is the most insidious of temptations that can beguile a human, and the belief that one has a good heart is often little more than one expression of having succumbed to this temptation.

Now it is true that there is a great joy in performing acts of love for which there is nothing to be gained for the self. But…

… and there is ALWAYS a ‘but’. We are Westerners, Western Intellectuals. What if – and ‘what if’ always follows a ‘but’ and you’ll get used to this with Intellectuals. Because the intellectual will not be aware of the ‘but’! Or they will dismiss it as an irrelevance, and so issues of the greatest import are glossed over in a moment. So in a breath they sweep aside their Portal Of Initiation.

Unseen, unnoticed! Unperceived. No evidence, then.

This is the nature of the ‘good heart’. This is what Steiner would have said had he been asked about Good Hearts:

“Those with Good Hearts had become used to one narrow sphere of life. They mastered the routine of this one sphere, but were neither inclined nor interested to see its connection with wider spheres around it. Within his own narrow sphere, each prided himself on having “A Good Heart”. Each did what the practice of his routine demanded, and allowed what he had done to mesh with the overall social mechanism. How it worked there was not a matter of concern. So at last everything became one great tangle; out of this tangled skein of events emerged the world catastrophe.

Whilst Steiner used the word ‘pragmatism’ in the above passage, the term ‘a good heart’ fits just as well. For the impulse for both is the same. That impulse is fear.

It is this becoming ‘used to one narrow sphere of life’ that the dangers truly lie. For perception is self-enclosing. If one cannot perceive something, it is outside your abilities to even think about, leave alone describe!

But that does not mean it cannot be described.

It only points to the limitations of those professing to have Good Hearts – but without having done the necessary foot work. But they will cry, we have Good Hearts! That is sufficient, is it not? “Steiner said so” they will whine.

Read the above passage again if you believe that.

And before anyone whines that I’ve been quoting Steiner or comes and says that this is all lies – as has occurred in the past – I ask them to examine why they would say this. Because this is their Portal Of Initiation. As are all such occurrences where someone writes from subconscious impulses. Only it does take someone else to point this out! The usual response is one of indignation, a little like the way the dragon felt so deeply wounded when probed by Michael’s shaft of light.

So why is it that someone expressing the truth will be told that they are telling lies? It is simply because the truth is not being expressed in a way that is comfortable for the listener.
Their irritation with this discomfort is to brand it a lie, and so appease this discomfort. Put the other way around, they seek to keep the dark areas of their subconscious firmly in their place. For their dragons still find the light of truth uncomfortable.

Quite as importantly, since they do not wish to disturb their dragons’ contented slumber, their arguments will be thin and their responses evasive. Watch out for this when reading comments, it is the touchstone. But it does require some degree of insight, and that means that one has met and tamed at least one dragon.

Dragons are not easily tamed, and subconscious ones are annoyingly elusive. Perceiving what one cannot perceive is an art all of its own. Like all good art, there is the foundation of a few rules. Like the oil painter must be aware of the basic chemistry of his pigments as certain of them will react with each other when mixed or laid side by side! A familiarity with such basic facts will then allow one to paint what one likes.

For Steiner spoke only rarely of the phenomenon, but back then the after tremours of the First World War had not wreaked their havoc on society. My own conclusions have arisen from dealing with my own double and only later realizing what Steiner was implying in a lecture. The other side of working with one’s own double is sharing one’s knowledge. This in itself implies taking a risk. As is usual with such brief encounters, such sharing is more in the form of a meaningful hint. No matter, one hint is usually enough to point them to the keys, and the path outwards has been unveiled.

The first step to working with one’s double is to realize that it is there at all. The second step is to realize that it is always other people who will raise one’s sleepy dragons. Not only that, but it is quite likely that they aren’t even aware of having done this! Such occurrences have been the beginnings of many a bitter fight, including the Vorstand’s brawl at the Goetheanum in 1935.

For it is in the nature of sleeping dragons that their wish is to remain undisturbed – and the fear, the driving factor in all subconscious actions – the fear is that in speaking to others, their own dragons will be disturbed. This in itself will lead to any number of terrible imaginations. Reason enough to leave well alone.

Reason enough to avoid taking any kind of risk. Which means if you see platitudes, you see someone hiding. The very opposite reaction to taking a risk. When you see words spoken that have little content and no real meaning, you see someone hiding. When you see people running to hide behind their elders and betters – and paradoxically, those very elders and betters seeking to protect people from harm. The latter hiding behind a veil of authority.

I could go on…

… well, that’s why I’m writing a book on it. As you can imagine, being the result of heart thinking, it doesn’t mention the double once. Nor does it need to.

Disclaimer: my understanding of the Double comes from personal experiences which were later confirmed by Steiner’s writings.

The Double: Links To Other Parts In This Series.

Part 1 Advertising The Double.  (Published on my private blog)
Part 2 “It Is To Have A Good Heart”  
Part 3 Enemies In The Boardroom.  
Part 4 The Knowledge Of Angels    (Published on my private blog)
Part 5 Milena Sees Witchcraft Everywhere.
Part 6 The Doppelgänger (Technical)    (Published on my private blog)
Part 7 I’ll Deal With It Later, Okay?    (Published on my private blog)
Part 8 Procrastination: Strengthening One’s Double.    (Published on my private blog)
Part 9 Sunday Shopping.    (Published on my private blog)
Part 10 Sitting At The Back Of A Bus.  (Published on my private blog)