Our Subconscious


Looking Beneath Consciousness.

The Subconscious, Part 9.

I was doing the vacuuming a few moments ago, and I was only able to do this because I found the bit that goes on the end of my hoover. Now this may sound a little odd, because moments before I had brought it and the hoover into my livingroom.

You see the problem was that I put the end bit down. I didn’t think to do this and so it sort-of disappeared. For you and me, it’s called absent-mindedness and being the bluestocking daughter of a university professor, it is my birthright.

Absent mindedness, that is!

Continue reading “Frustration!”


“It Is To Have A Good Heart”

Frauds and their Behaviour, Part 6

The Double, Part 2

This comes from a comment made to me yesterday. I was informed that having a good heart leads to good action.


Well, this is what many people think. What’s more, it is comforting to think that in having a good heart, one will do good. But care is needed when feeling too comfortable in oneself! This is the most insidious of temptations that can beguile a human, and the belief that one has a good heart is often little more than one expression of having succumbed to this temptation.

Well, this is what many people think. What’s more, it is comforting to think that in having a good heart, one will do good. But care is needed when feeling too comfortable in oneself! This is the most insidious of temptations that can beguile a human, and the belief that one has a good heart is often little more than one expression of having succumbed to this temptation.

Now it is true that there is a great joy in performing acts of love for which there is nothing to be gained for the self. But…

… and there is ALWAYS a ‘but’. We are Westerners, Western Intellectuals. What if – and ‘what if’ always follows a ‘but’ and you’ll get used to this with Intellectuals. Because the intellectual will not be aware of the ‘but’! Or they will dismiss it as an irrelevance, and so issues of the greatest import are glossed over in a moment. So in a breath they sweep aside their Portal Of Initiation.

Unseen, unnoticed! Unperceived. No evidence, then.

This is the nature of the ‘good heart’. This is what Steiner would have said had he been asked about Good Hearts:

“Those with Good Hearts had become used to one narrow sphere of life. They mastered the routine of this one sphere, but were neither inclined nor interested to see its connection with wider spheres around it. Within his own narrow sphere, each prided himself on having “A Good Heart”. Each did what the practice of his routine demanded, and allowed what he had done to mesh with the overall social mechanism. How it worked there was not a matter of concern. So at last everything became one great tangle; out of this tangled skein of events emerged the world catastrophe.

Whilst Steiner used the word ‘pragmatism’ in the above passage, the term ‘a good heart’ fits just as well. For the impulse for both is the same. That impulse is fear.

It is this becoming ‘used to one narrow sphere of life’ that the dangers truly lie. For perception is self-enclosing. If one cannot perceive something, it is outside your abilities to even think about, leave alone describe!

But that does not mean it cannot be described.

It only points to the limitations of those professing to have Good Hearts – but without having done the necessary foot work. But they will cry, we have Good Hearts! That is sufficient, is it not? “Steiner said so” they will whine.

Read the above passage again if you believe that.

And before anyone whines that I’ve been quoting Steiner or comes and says that this is all lies – as has occurred in the past – I ask them to examine why they would say this. Because this is their Portal Of Initiation. As are all such occurrences where someone writes from subconscious impulses. Only it does take someone else to point this out! The usual response is one of indignation, a little like the way the dragon felt so deeply wounded when probed by Michael’s shaft of light.

So why is it that someone expressing the truth will be told that they are telling lies? It is simply because the truth is not being expressed in a way that is comfortable for the listener.
Their irritation with this discomfort is to brand it a lie, and so appease this discomfort. Put the other way around, they seek to keep the dark areas of their subconscious firmly in their place. For their dragons still find the light of truth uncomfortable.

Quite as importantly, since they do not wish to disturb their dragons’ contented slumber, their arguments will be thin and their responses evasive. Watch out for this when reading comments, it is the touchstone. But it does require some degree of insight, and that means that one has met and tamed at least one dragon.

Dragons are not easily tamed, and subconscious ones are annoyingly elusive. Perceiving what one cannot perceive is an art all of its own. Like all good art, there is the foundation of a few rules. Like the oil painter must be aware of the basic chemistry of his pigments as certain of them will react with each other when mixed or laid side by side! A familiarity with such basic facts will then allow one to paint what one likes.

For Steiner spoke only rarely of the phenomenon, but back then the after tremours of the First World War had not wreaked their havoc on society. My own conclusions have arisen from dealing with my own double and only later realizing what Steiner was implying in a lecture. The other side of working with one’s own double is sharing one’s knowledge. This in itself implies taking a risk. As is usual with such brief encounters, such sharing is more in the form of a meaningful hint. No matter, one hint is usually enough to point them to the keys, and the path outwards has been unveiled.

The first step to working with one’s double is to realize that it is there at all. The second step is to realize that it is always other people who will raise one’s sleepy dragons. Not only that, but it is quite likely that they aren’t even aware of having done this! Such occurrences have been the beginnings of many a bitter fight, including the Vorstand’s brawl at the Goetheanum in 1935.

For it is in the nature of sleeping dragons that their wish is to remain undisturbed – and the fear, the driving factor in all subconscious actions – the fear is that in speaking to others, their own dragons will be disturbed. This in itself will lead to any number of terrible imaginations. Reason enough to leave well alone.

Reason enough to avoid taking any kind of risk. Which means if you see platitudes, you see someone hiding. The very opposite reaction to taking a risk. When you see words spoken that have little content and no real meaning, you see someone hiding. When you see people running to hide behind their elders and betters – and paradoxically, those very elders and betters seeking to protect people from harm. The latter hiding behind a veil of authority.

I could go on…

… well, that’s why I’m writing a book on it. As you can imagine, being the result of heart thinking, it doesn’t mention the double once. Nor does it need to.

Disclaimer: my understanding of the Double comes from personal experiences which were later confirmed by Steiner’s writings.

The Double: Links To Other Parts In This Series.

Part 1 Advertising The Double.  (Published on my private blog)
Part 2 “It Is To Have A Good Heart”  
Part 3 Enemies In The Boardroom.  
Part 4 The Knowledge Of Angels    (Published on my private blog)
Part 5 Milena Sees Witchcraft Everywhere.
Part 6 The Doppelgänger (Technical)    (Published on my private blog)
Part 7 I’ll Deal With It Later, Okay?    (Published on my private blog)
Part 8 Procrastination: Strengthening One’s Double.    (Published on my private blog)
Part 9 Sunday Shopping.    (Published on my private blog)
Part 10 Sitting At The Back Of A Bus.  (Published on my private blog)

Modern Times

No Time! No Time! Untying The Riddle Of Alexander The Great.

Impatience As Metaphor For Modern Civilization.

Ancient & Modern.

Alexander the Great. No time for the ways of the ancients, he thrust into the modern world where there is no time.Alexander the Great is famous for many things. One of which is his conquest of Asia. From Greece there is one path that an army can take to the east. And Gordium stands directly in the way. Well, of course that is why it was there, as a defence. It also had an oxcart standing in the forum tied by its shaft to a column. It was already ancient history to Alexander. Nor was it any ordinary knot. In it was some ceremonial pattern with knotted letters intertwined. Whatever spell it contained, Alexander had no time. No time to busy himself with the niceties of discovering ancient wisdom. For Alexander was a man of action. He made a decision in the light of the moment and acted on it.

He took the relevant facts, ordered them swiftly

and pounced.

Continue reading “No Time! No Time! Untying The Riddle Of Alexander The Great.”

Art · Modern Times

Vincent Van Gogh: Enclosing Reality On Canvas

Modern Art.

van Gogh saw the peasants life as nasty, brutal and short. For them it may have been, but I assure you that at times, it was truly lovely.
Peasants toiling in Drenthe, in the Eastern part of the Netherlands. I discuss the sky in this painting in my next post on van Gogh.

The Monochrome Intellectual, Part 2.

Vincent van Goch wanted to depict the way he saw life before the onset of industrialization. His passion was for graphic depiction using mainly oil paint on canvas. His early years as a painter were spent in areas that still go largely unnoticed by tourists. Drenthe, a province in the East of the Netherlands provided him with views as dismal as his own feelings. Dark browns and heavy charcoal sketches depict a life that he saw as being full of sorrow and toil. Now it may well have been true that these peasants had little enjoyment of life.

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Infinity: What Is It (And Where To Find One Of Your Own)

The Imagination

Infinity is big. In fact, it is very, very big. It is even bigger than the incalculable Graham’s number. Now Graham’s number is big. I mean it is really, really big. It even makes Douglas Adam’s view of the universe look small!

Graham’s number is unimaginably larger than other well-known large numbers such as a googol, googolplex, and even larger than Skewes’ number and Moser’s number. Indeed, the observable universe is far too small to contain an ordinary digital representation of Graham’s number, assuming that each digit occupies at least one Planck volume. Even power towers of the form  are useless for this purpose, although it can be easily described by recursive formulas using Knuth’s up-arrow notation or the equivalent, as was done by Graham. The last ten digits of Graham’s number are … 2464195387″ (1)

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Emotional Intelligence

Your Brain: A Masterpiece Of Hard Wiring.

And Your Brain Wiring Can Change Like A Viral Ad.

Your Brain, A User Manual: Part 3

A hundred billion neurons, each with thirty thousand connections. That means the average brain has 500 trillion connections.

That is one hell of a big computer.

Actually this number of connections is roughly the size of the global internet. Think of it: inside your head is your own “brain the size of the planet” as Douglas Adams might have joked.

From the previous post, I trust that you’ll agree that your neurons are way more than just electric switches. Neurons are cells that can breed, and can organize themselves when called to. Continue reading “Your Brain: A Masterpiece Of Hard Wiring.”


Black And White: The Limits Of Logic.

The Limitations Of Rational Thinking

Can monkeys type?

There is a logical proposition that if you take an infinite number of monkeys and tie them to an infinite number of typewriters for an infinite number of years, you will eventually have the complete works of Shakespeare.

Which of course is absurd. It is the farcical consequence of over-egged logical thinking. The logic has just one flaw that sets off an explosion of consequential errors.

First I would like to you one question: how much time would it take to read through all those pages to find the correct typescript? How many times would you come across Joyce’s “Ulysses” with one spelling error? How many times would you have the complete works of Oscar Wilde written in reverse or snatches of Jane Austen mixed into the Bible along with hints of Conan the Barbarian? In amongst pages and pages of scrambled jumbles of nonsense.

Whilst the logical proposition is clear, the reality of dealing with infinities makes a complete ass of logic.

Continue reading “Black And White: The Limits Of Logic.”